So I drive in to work now and I park in this sketchy parking lot behind an alleyway only because its a few dollars cheaper. Actually, it went up a dollar today and now its 10 dollars a day. Thats a huge chunk of my paycheck man. Anyways, I'd like to share a story about the parking lot man...

I think hes some kind of Pakistany. Meaning I can't understand half the stuff hes saying to me. But the past week 2 days before Memorial Day he goes to me "So, you going to party this Friday?"

"No, not really, but I'm busy the rest of the weekend."

He proceeds to ask me, "We should go out and Party Friday Night. I give you FREE parking!"

I proceed to swallow my tongue and try to find someway to not be rude and really want to just run away for my life at this point. Before this he complimented on my clay beaded necklace too, so I guess I should have seen this coming. Maybe my shirt was a little too lowcut that day? I don't know, but all I said was, "No, no thats OK. It wouldn't be fair to everyone else!" and just kind of giggled my way away, gave him my last 9 dollars in my wallet, and walked away as quickly as possible. Also just so you know, I'm pretty this guy is AT LEAST 40 and I was terrified. I'm willing to sacrifice it though to save a good 20 dollars a week. Thats a lot of drinks man.

A few days later he goes to me, "You sure you don't want free parking?"

Good lord, didn't he get it the first time? Maybe he really doesn't understand English, its quite possible. All I said was "No, thanks," this time and really did run away I'm pretty sure. I'm all for the free parking, but not if it means I need to get raped in the process. NO THANK YOU. Maybe I need to yell. I'll try that next time.


This weekend was Vanessa and Daveys wedding which was adorable and fun. First of the gang to get married. Its so surreal. Who's going to be next?I don't think many of us for awhile unless we elope with a stranger off the street. I think I'll pass on that one too.

Yesturday was my sisters highschool graduation. I can't believe shes going to college. We were remembering how in elementary school no one thought she would graduate highschool nevermind go to college. Those smart ass bastards. The graduation ceremony was absolutely terrible though. Three hours loooong. I'm going to say its because a few kids died in a car accident because they were drunk, and because the old highschool was torn down and there was a 30 minute speech just on how they were "the bridge" year and that they were special. Puh-leeeease. Don't give me heartache on how you suffered through construction. At least they tore down the Espestus building of disease finally. However, the gym is EXACTLY the same with the SAME crappy bleacher hard ass benches with no back. My back was in such pain last night you have no idea.

All in all, a weekend of white, black, portugese, and french mixed with a side of yawns, drunks, dance, and graduated bleach blonde bitches. I forgot how much I hated my town until that graduation.

Who here thinks this is because Paula had a drunken debauchery adventure and ended up on her ass?? I DO. Ahahahahahaha.

LOS ANGELES - Paula Abdul broke her nose over the weekend after she fell while trying to avoid stepping on her Chihuahua, her publicist said Monday.

Abdul was recovering from the mishap and will appear on "American Idol" Tuesday and its season finale Wednesday, publicist David Brokaw said.

"She's a little sore, but is doing fine," he said.

Abdul told the syndicated entertainment TV show "Extra" she tore cartilage in her nose and fractured her toe.

"I took a nasty fall ... trying not to hurt my dog. I bruised myself on my arm ... my chest, my waist all the way down to my hip. All from my little chubby Tulip," Abdul said.

The dog was not hurt, Brokaw said.

So I thought this was pretty awesome....take that you conservative bitches...even FLAMINGOES have gay couples. haHA!

LONDON (AFP) - A pair of gay flamingos have adopted an abandoned chick, becoming parents after being together for six years, a British conservation organisation said Monday.

Carlos and Fernando had been desperate to start a family, even chasing other flamingos from their nests to take over their eggs at the Wildfowl and Wetlands Trust (WWT) in Slimbridge near Bristol.

But their egg-sitting prowess made them the top choice for taking an unhatched egg under their wings when one of the Greater Flamingo nests was abandoned.

The couple, together for six years, can feed chicks by producing milk in their throats.

"Fernando and Carlos are a same sex couple who have been known to steal other flamingos' eggs by chasing them off their nest because they wanted to rear them themselves," said WWT spokeswoman Jane Waghorn.

"They were rather good at sitting on eggs and hatching them so last week, when a nest was abandoned, it seemed like a good idea to make them surrogate parents."

Gay flamingos are not uncommon, she added.

"If there aren't enough females or they don't hit it off with them, they will pair off with other males," she said.

So, another day of answering phones. We'll see how long this lasts. I'm gonna say, NOT long. I mean, I have to go at least 6 monthes becasue thats what I told them. But honestly can't see it for longer than a year. Who could?

Justin Augustos getting 26 dollars an hour as a social worker. Maybe I'll look into that...I've been thinking about genuinely wanting to help people lately its makes sense...

Its also a lot of money, who knew.

Trying to figure out what my niche is is really hard. Nothing that uses my talents fully ever comes in a full time job at entry level. Fuckers. So I have to be really creative and use my free time wisely.

Like dicking around facebook all the time.

O well, lol.

Poke poke, YOU'RE IT!!

Umm so lets see I felt like posting since I'm bored at my desk and my hands are numb so at this point who cares. I'm at a interior design and architect group today. Architects are hoooot by the way. Just thought ya'll should know.

I've had a lot of scary dreams lately. Liiike, getting into a huge explosion truck accident and dieing. Getting into a car chase. Getting trapped in an attic full of rats. Evidently these all mean good things in the future. I have a dream book I KNOW these things. But still its pretty annoying getting blown up in your dreams.

What the hell.

Thats RIGHT! Its Paul Ferrari's Birthday. And since he made a post on my bday I just thought I'd drop a line to the livejournal community and make sure you call and leave retarded messages. He likes those.

I'm in Boston today after getting retarded lost and somehow ended up in Cambridge and didn't know it. Just worked 1-5 so its short and sweet. So far I'm working this weekend too at the Boston Design Firm. No newspaper freelance job this week so I got bored and begged to work. So she called me while I was running errands and drove to work with jeans on. Its awesome. Hopefully traffic wont be too terrible on the drive home. I might just hit some people. Watch out, Boston, MA. Tory Voner is on the roooooad.

On the road to something incredible. Not sure what that is yet but I'll figure it out. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAUL we'll figure out life together soon. I hope he liked the GIGANTIC fortune cookie I sent to his work. It looked pretty incredible online.

Better save that fortune Paul.

I miss you all so much. But I have this feeling we'll be getting together and laughing about crows and fanged butterflies on the tar in the middle of streets for quite a long time to come. I'm not worried that we don't post on livejournal anymore. It just gives us an excuse to get together and share our stories together :)

Hey,

No idea why I am posting in letter format. I think its because I have written so many inquiries to companies that my head just might explode. But I finally have 2 interviews this week. Mostly for companies that have nothing to do with what I want, aka illustration, but I'm almost positive that only exists for the well off illustrators. But for now I need money and freelancing for good companies is going to happen. Pretty sure I'll do ok in these interviews, if its based on first impressions in any way because I know I'm good at that. One of them is for a temp secretary in an agency in Boston. So many people have given me a "meh" reaction to that and its kinda making me crazy. I really don't think I can stay bored in my house anymore, I need to make some money, and I'm just about to make my illustration mailings to companies so I haven't even had any feedback yet. So far I have spent 625 dollars in business materials in the past 6 weeks. Hopefully it will pay off. I'm sick of my mom telling me to go on EHarmony.com. I'm sick of not having a social life. I need to get a real job somewhere and secretary experience is all I've got besides art so it sounds good to me.

I think this was a rant to self assure myself. I think it might have worked I'll let you know if you ask.

Life is hard. Maybe I'll plaster my walls.

Warm regards,

Victoria Voner
Reading Rainbow, MA
"Hire me"

Well its not really but I thought that'd be a funny title. I dunno the past 2 weeks of tech have been hardcore and I havent slept much at all since I've been doing freelance illustration on the "side." Hmm maybe it is XXX.

I was almost at my breaking point with this internship and then yesturday Dan gave us a "pep talk." All I can say is that I really needed it and I respect him so much more. He basically told us he knows how tired we and how much work we put into the show and that he really appreciated it. This might sound like something so simple but they never did that once and its always just them barking at us and sometimes it felt like it didn't matter what we did. He brightened my mood incredibly especially when he said hes noticed a lot of "brain farts." Yeah I'm gonna say thats the lack of sleep working.

Somehow I've managed to get most of my xmas shopping done mostly because I know I'm gonna hate xmas by the time xmas carol is over. I rock I guess.

Oh and my brakes went yesturday. So I brought it into the shop and there like yeah.....if you drove this anymore ya prolly woulda died.

Awesome.....360 dollars later.....

Ooof that burns.....like a yeast infection.

Haha dont worry I don't have one this is my sleep delerium talking.

Hmmm what am I doing after Christmas for work?? I have nooooo F-ing cluuuue.

Heheh sounds good to me :)

I know, thats kind of obvious. I'm pretty sure Hairspray is just making me ill because Im so sick of it. But tommorow is the last show and STRIKE!!! YAAAAAAAAAY

And Boo since I'm too sick and tired to do that.

Oh well.

My projects are piling up quickly since I need to have 4 Batman illustrations done in about 2 weeks and I only have one done and it took me forever since its supposed to be realism.

Realism BLOWS btw. I can do it, its just not fun to me. Why dont you just take a photograph. Oh wait, cause hes poor and can't build a batcave and batmobile. Go figure. At least I'm being paid something.

Childrens book has been going slower since I started this other project and hell week for XXXmas carol starts next week so Im screwed. And since I'm sick I really should get some sleep but I know that aint happening.

Oh well. Caffeine pills it is.

I know Paul, your so proud, lol.

I hope Anne Frank went well for everyone at UMASS!! Go TCO!!!

So no worries, I do have plans tommorow after I work a 10 AM show, have a client meeting at one, then have yet another show at 8 and won't get out til about 11ish. Going to a sketchy bar with all the PAs and celebrating my bday into Tims bday which is the next day. It'll never top last years bday though I miss everyone so much. I mean, I like a lot of the people here but not beyond a work friendly basis that I know will never go beyond that. And the 2 people I liked have gone out the window because now Emily is ignoring my prescence for some unknown reason and I really couldn't care less anymore. It conveniently started the second she got herself a boyfriend. Hmm go figure. And then theres Tim who I still get along great with but now hes got a girlfriend.

I'm noticing a common theme here and its getting slightly annoying.

Lets just say all you peeps best call me tommorow because I know it won't be all that great. But I get to see Steph, Jill, Laura and Emily Saturday caz there coming to see Hairspray!! This is prolly the highlight of my month how sad huh.

Meh. This is the new life of Tory. I am looking forward to things changing again.

Alright, so moving on to the next show. I am so sad Jessus is over I miss it a lot I never got sick of it actually. I got pics with jesus and judas actually but someone else has them i want them baaaad. This whole Hairspray thing is entertaining I thought the tech was going to be a lot worse than it actually is. My boss is freaking out about it still though and its kind of pissing me off slightly. Damn Andrew mackay got me in trouble again.

Yeah thats right, theres another andrew mackay. And hes a pain in the ass and I usually want to slap him. Meh Ill get over it.

So I got home tonight and my dad woke up and went downstairs just to give me a hug and tell me he was proud of me for what I was doing with my life. Evidently my mom cut up what hes been doing for the last 20 years and hes realized no one has told him how proud they are of him. How terrible is that?? I didn't know what to say to him but I felt terrible. Actually, hes up again and he has to be up at 530 this morning.

I'm pretty sure that is the most heartfelt emotion ive ever seen come from him actually. And Im pretty sure I really needed that encouragement from someone right now to continue my strive to make something of my life. Its just unbelievable that my mom would say something like that to him when he has such a cushy job in the government doing what he loves. Granted sometimes it gets slow I guess and he goes and plays baseball and gets paid for it. No idea why hes complaining dont ask me man.

"You can't stop the beaaaaaaat......"

These Hairspray songs get WAY too stuck in my head man its RETARDED.

So tech week is almost ending for Jesus Christ Superstar which is a favorite show of mine....mostly caz the orchestra is so rock and roll and i love it. The cast is amazing though, and all REALLY hot even though 90 percent of them are gay. Oh well. They are beautiful to look at. Especially Jesus. And Peter yuuuuuuuuuumm. I waved to Jesus (Nicholas) on the cross and he waved back at me and winked which was pretty awesome. I got to watch it last night since they werent doing flys it was a stroll probe. Yup im in a 50 foot high catwalk the entire show and control everything that comes out of the ceiling its pretty stresstastic. I get to see the whole show up there though i get prime seating which is a MAJOR plus. Not gonna lie i love it. I also sit right next to my crush Tim the electrics guy. Hotness.

Funny story. Running through the part of the show where Judas kisses Jesus because hes betraying him and the director goes......"make the kiss linger a little bit." Then Jesus goes......."FOR REAL!!!!" Then the next time they do it Jesus wets his lips preparing for the kiss. I lost my SHIT man. Evidently Jesus and Judas the actors might actually have a thing going on......how funny!!

The new boss for this show is kind of insane not gonna lie he always makes you feel stupid if u dont know something which makes me crazy. And if i even go to the bathroom for 2 seconds he flips out and is like WHERES TORY!!! Ugh. I deal with it know it is tech week I guess I'll deal.

This is my first afternoon of rest but I go back at 5 tonight. I have barely gone through any of my shifts and the first audience is tommorow. AWEEESSOOOME> Dammit I hate being unprepared. Hopefully I work good under pressure.

We shall seeeeeeeeeee.

So yeah. Strike today for Cinderella. F-ing amazing we finished around 10ish. Ya know no cast members help in real theatre doesnt surprise me. I have blissters in every print of my hand and it bllows but thats ok i worked with eric kelly and he roooocks. We all call him "E" in professional theater. So after that we all pounded down a few beers and eric left paul a drunken voicemail that was amazing and was so terrified to do it but he was still amazing. It was Mayas last day which i kinda became close to so i got kinda drunk mostly caz eric gave me Jack daniels shots which i couldnt argue with. He asked me if i was driving and i said yup and hes like well your a big girl. So we pounded those and continued with our beers. Josh told me i should go to the intern house and i promised him and then eric told me i couldnt drive either.

Dammit im in love so i listened. Then Maya took my keys from me and i never saw them again. So....me and jeff went to the intern house and basically hung with maya and the brand new intern who evidently jeff is the boss for so that was weird. And we got more drunk caz i assumed i was gonna sleep over but thenn jeff lost his hat and maya definitely hid it and wouldnt tell us where it was so he wouldnt leave and drive me back to my car caz i gave up on this shiznit. Then jeff made the new guy dive back to the car since he was the boss and then i realized maya took my keys and i forgot and went back to get them. Well she lost them and said she never took them in the first place since she was drunk. I was SO PISSED. I started SCREAMING at her and throwing things around her room but she wouldnt give in. So i gave up and made the new kid drive me hom 20 minutes that just met me that night but i didnt care.

its all BULLSHIT. WHO DOES THAT. So now i hav eno car and my parents will have tyo drive me there tonight to get the car. F this mess im driving drunk tnext time this is bogus. I want my fing keys BACK.

I have a headache. And i totally woke my parents up since i had no house key either. Even if it was 10 minutess befoer there real alarm afor work, lol. And this girl tara at work i almost flipped out at since she talks to me like im 2 and i dont handle that well. Its been a terrible day sides Eric Kelly pretty much since i love him. Ahhhhhhhhhhh

Im drunk. I cant hear much. I FINALLY have my period. This explains my last entry. I apologize. I have cramps. I hung out with all the northshore people in a Salem bar tonight. Pretty sure they were shocked that I partied. I kicked all there asses dancing. Me and Emily are the new "Cool Emily and Cool Tory"

BOOYAAAAAAAAAAAA

This will be my last waaaaaaaaah entry I promise. But honestly, if this is how its all going down guys I promise I'll pull a canvas over all of your heads. No more ignoring my phone calls and laughing at my retarded voicemails. I just know if I dont try none of you will and that makes me incessantly sad. I mean I'm already making new friends and all but thats no reason to leave me in the dust man. I mean 3 or 4 of you live about 15 minutes from me and yet weve never visited eachother. This is pathetic. Are we in some kind of college bubble or something still??

Well that needs to be broken.

Pfffffffffffffft.

There. Done. Now call me please :D

Wow. I apologize that turned into an angry entry so quickly i dont know what happened. Maybe its the south carolina chick Bree I hate at Northshore who wants to be a stage manager but is in the same position as me and has only been there 2 more weeks than be and is consistantly ordering me around. I will KILL her. Other than that I like everyone haha.

Also, made a new friend there. Her name is guess what?? Oh thats right EMILY. I now will have THREE close friends named emily. This is totally gonna fuck with my head man. Oh well going to a bar tommorow night with her. Lets see how that goes. We desocialized ourselves from everyone there caz they are have a joined bday party at a bar and didnt invite us. So screw them man we will have our own fun. HOT.

We'll break into there click somehow I swear. The new people just need to stick together and break through their bullshit. MUAHAHHAHA!

This song is amazing by Phantom Planet yall need to get it. Its called Lonely Day and has kind of fit my mood this weeks to a T. I hate being a girl by the way I'm so overly emotional and I need to bleed.

There I said it.

I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was going to be a lonely lonely
Lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes
And try to tell myself I can’t
Go back to bed
It’s gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be
I just got here and I already want to leave
It’s gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day

Everybody knows that something’s wrong
But nobody knows what’s going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It’s shaping up to be a lonely day

I could tell from the minute I woke up it was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.

Friends are going back to school, Paul is moving to Florida for 9 months, I am starting a highly time committed internship, people are already getting lost in their home worlds and I hardly talk to them it seems, and everything just feels strange.

I've cried about 3 times the last few days and I'm hoping its the hormones, but I'm thinking thats only about 20 percent of the problem. I'm so happy with how my life has been going so far, and I can already tell its only going to get better. But its all happening so fast that I just want to cherish every moment I have. I know I won't have time to visit school the fall semester but I'm hoping we can get some people together to visit paul in like January.

I know, I'm already worried about this but its really coming up so very fast. Time is like lightning right now and I wish I were Zeus.

I am really excited for my internship at North Shore Music theatre though for Productive assistant. Its prolly about 50 hours a week I'm thinking maybe more but its paid so I'm not complaining too much. Chris Todd also works there right now so she already talked to the scenic artist for me. Yay Chris! That internship opens in March so I'm counting on getting that. So this season I'm doing Cinderella, Jesus Christ Superstar, Hairspray, and maybe Christmas Carol. We shall see. I'm also really excited to meet a bunch of new people because its definitely come time for that. They'll also be living near me so maybe I'll have more than one friend I can hang out with around here. I'll at least admit I know its time to move on but it still sucks in my heart. Pretty sure I could have lived in college forever, if only it didnt cost so much, haha.

Also, just found out the guy that is using me to illustrate his book just found a publisher who wants to look at a final copy ready. How awesome is that. Granted I don't even have 2 paintings done yet out of 14.....ooooooof.

I think I'm so pensive right now just because this weekend I thought was awesome. Pretty sure I talked to Paul so much about everything that it was equivilant to like 2 months at college. Jarrad didn't die on the cancer walk granted his knee is a mess but we love him. We didn't trash his apartment but we left a clay-molded penis that his parents found when they walked in. The portuguese feast was pretty cool and I ate so much meat this weekend I'm pretty sure a vegetarian would committ suicide. Meat on a stick is the way to go man. Dance party to fiona apple with paul and jocelyn in jarrads place drunk on 24 beers and medeira wine. Discovering that paul hates Reading as much as I do. Discovering that paul and I really get lost wherever we go, and we like to ride the subway in the wrong direction.

10PM Sunday night I was OUT COLD. Even when Allyson calls at 1130 when the phone is right next to my bed and I didnt even hear it. Oh and she got grounded for it.

haHA!

Its getting to that time of year where everyone is going back to school, and its beginning to freak me out. I can honestly say I loved going to class in college, every class (pretty much) was something that I wanted to learn. I might go to grad school just because of that, but if I did I'd want it to be in a different country...also because its way cheaper man and would be so awesome.

I have a telephone interview today with north shore music theatre though! I'm honestly very excited about this its a paid internship and 40+ hours a week and there gonna hook me up with the scenic artist so that I have a better chance of getting that position in March. I'm all over this man. Maybe I didnt waste 8 years doing theatre after all! haha jk I loved doing it in college theres no way college would have been the same. But how cool would that be? Wish me luck :)

Also, childrens book illustrations are still pending...they might take me awhile there are 14 pictures i need to make haha.

Hey folks,

I'm pretty sure no one uses this much anymore or reads it but I felt like updating. Since Toms gone to camp especially, he was the only consistant updater. I used to be, then real life came. Booooo/yaaay? I dunno, everything is still very much in the air right now. I can already feel the friendships dissipating but we all knew that was coming. In some cases I wasn't too sad about it actually. Others, it breaks my heart.

Secretary job still quickly getting old but maybe once it isn't 5 days a week I won't want to kill myself. But I need the money/they need the coverage in the summer. But 6AM is so goddamn early man. That plus the fact that every night I want to hit the gym, plus my illustration gigs that I whip out at night. Which by that point I am soooo exhausted but I just suck it up because I have never missed a deadline. The titanic the musical logo has been a bitch because every night they want to change something but thankfully it should be over Friday.

Saturday heading to Newport to see the American illustration gallery in one of the mansions there. Its 25 bucks but I have this feeling it will be worth it, especially to me. Anyone who wants to come with let me know!! Going to Yellowstone with the fam next wednesday and will be gone for 2 weeks si Ill miss yall. But it should be a good time....I will take plenty o pictures and Ill send postcards!! Unlike Paul, I actually will send them haha.

I better see EVERYONE at my graduation party or youll be sorry. You better all drink my alcohol and eat my food and sleep in my bed. Well my lawn my bed sucks anyways, lol. I can already tell my mom is buying/making soooo much food. You won't want to miss her lasagna its amaaaazing.

Also, after all these graduation parties we better still hang out or I might just go insane in Reading. I have one friend here and thats it and it makes me sad. I miss having social contact 24 hours a day, lol. I love you guys :)

Things after college seem so surreal to me right now. Working at Lahey Clinic, thankfully I got a raise because I can barely stand after only 2 weeks. Basically at work I apply to all the art jobs I can online. Working on childrens book illustration right now and Seth my marketing seller new friend is going to the top publisher first. Hes really cool I met him at Panera of all places, I was too scared to meet him in Boston haha. We'll see how many responses I get I've gotton quite a few already. One thought I was in a design firm already and wanted to interview me. He thought I lived in New York and thought I was well established already, which was weird. It was for RAW Black Book magazine, which actually looks soooo cool you guys should check it out.....blackbook.com. I'm not going to do it though just cause you have to pay 100 bucks a month and its only for like well established companies really. But it was pretty cool that they liked me enough for an interview.

Other than that I'm just a secretary by day and an artist by night....its working for me right now we'll just have to see what happens....